new ways

i'm going to start the new year off on a new foot.
i'm consolidating all of my journals into ONE journal here.
*whew*
i really hate having to separate my life into categories.
it's all one.

i am also slowly starting to retreat from online life.
it will probably be a slow process.
but today i announced to my yahoo list that i was not going to be updating there anymore.

it was a list in an adult category. not really appropriate to where i am right now in my life.

it's been a bit of a struggle to come to that decision. but it's just time to move on to new things and new ways.

i don't even know in what form my site will be in the future.
i'm struggling with keeping it as it is. it needs to change.
i think i will always keep it in some form, but it really needs to change now that i have a family because there are far too many fruitcakes out there of the not-very-good kind that do not have my daughter's best interest in mind.

so i am going to be slowly retreating from the online world, i foresee, in the next year or so.

but i still do want to share a few things.
like my hat making (which i want to getback to very much!), and things about domestic life and cooking.
and well, i guess just the "safe" things.

because at almost 42 years of age i don't have the time or energy to deal with all the political bullshit anymore.
and i don't really care to struggle anymore and "fight the good fight" online.

it's not giving up, it's just realizing when it's best to move on.

i don't feel a need to make my daughter into the poster child for T21.
and i don't feel the need to fight for my right to be naked on my cam.

and i just don't feel the need to fight anymore, period.

i want a peaceful life now.
a peaceful life for my daughter and my family.

and so that is what i am going to be nurturing now :)

so for now, i am not going to be adding any friends back here because nothing is going to be friends only.
and i am going to screen all comments because mostly this is just going to be a place for me to update about things, not so much to dialogue about it.